My silly dream

I remembered a dream I had last night – a silly dream to most of you, I’m sure.

I dreamed that winter was already over and the girls and I were starting to pack our trailer house – preparing for the summer wheat harvest. That time of year is such an anticipated time in our lives. We live by events rather than months. First, it’s the end of summer harvest, Thanksgiving, Christmas, USCHI convention and then harvest is just around the corner. There’s birthdays and anniversaries to celebrate too, but above all it’s the summer harvest that motivates us to get through that winter mode.

So, last night when I dreamed that we were getting ready for harvest, I remember being happy that winter was already over and  it was time to get ready to go again. I wish I could explain to you what it means to be home in the fall – out of our little home on wheels and back in “real” life. Harvest is stressful and does tend to wear on a person’s nerves at times but overall it’s us, it’s our life, it’s what we enjoy, it’s an addiction!

I sit here in the trailer house beginning to realize that the end of being on the road is coming much faster than I want it to. The girls are already home and that gives me a reason to want to go home. But, the end of what we look forward to all year long is about to become a reality. I know the girls can relate to what it is I’m TRYING to explain to you and can’t. Words just  can’t effectively explain what it is that I go through every year when it’s time to think about heading for home. Maybe it’s the time we, as a family, spend together that I’ll miss. Maybe it’s working together towards that final end result (a job well done and it took all of us to do). Maybe it’s not knowing what day it is or what’s happening in the news. Maybe it’s the simpler way of life. Maybe…hmmm…I just can’t pinpoint what it is that I’m trying to say. I’m saddened by the fact that the past 100 days has already come and gone.

No more of the excitement of being on road and reaching our destination with a job to do. The last time I “take down” the stuff in the trailer house and the last time we load that combine and the last time I see a wheat field will break my heart. It’s the let down I experience every summer when wheat harvest is over that I don’t look forward to. Going home means being involved in a different world. When I think about the world we are about to immerse ourselves back into, it makes me appreciate the time I’ve had with my family these past 100 days. We are truly blessed because we live in a trailer house for 100 days following the ripening wheat north. We are fortunate to have been a part of so many different people’s lives, places and events. But most of all, we’re blessed to have been a part of the segment of agriculture that has become the cornerstone in the foundation of our family. Only those of you who live our life understand what it is I’m trying to explain.

6 comments on “My silly dream

  1. Chad says:

    Actually you did pretty well at putting into words something that is deep in the soul. I have never been on the wheat harvest run, it’s something I’ve always admired from a distance (wanted to go but never had the chance). But you’ve made me feel what you’re feeling with this post even though I’ve not been on the wheat harvest trail. I suppose everyone feels that ache/longing of the heart in some way and that’s why I can identify with your words. We humans don’t like endings to things we take joy in. Thanks again for taking the time to put into words what’s going on.

    • Really? You really think I was able to put into words that seem so hard to find? I hope so but I think there will probably be more once it actually starts happening – heading home. Writing is good for me – it helps those silly feelings of mine escape.

  2. You said it perfectly and anyone who has been on the run for any amount of time knows EXACTLY what you are talking about. I have been known to go out into the camper in January when it is -40º just to imagine what it will be like in a few months and think about those 110º days that we suffered through.

    When you can wake up in the morning in the same camper and know that when you walk out that door, you could be at any stop along the run, it feels like every stop is home…at least for a week or so at a time. I don’t dislike the off season, I just think of it as intermission until the real living starts.

    Keep up the great reads!

    • Thanks, Marilyn! I knew someone who understood being on the road and harvest would KNOW just exactly what I was trying to say. The end of the season really tugs at my heart and I almost hate the idea of going home again. It doesn’t take very long, though, and the harvest adventure becomes a memory and feels like a dream.

      Your note means a lot – coming from a seasoned blogger!!!

  3. Candi says:

    Aw Tracy your post makes me want to cry, you did a great job explaining the end of the season let down. Summer harvest is such a great time to spend with the family, even if the times aren’t always so friendly it’s definately a family bonding time 🙂

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