And just like that…it was over.
It started the fall of 1991. It ended on Saturday. The school schedule has controlled what we’ve done, where we we’ve gone, and has been a major piece of the game called life. I’ve been so focused on getting through each day that I never really thought about it being over. Oh, don’t get me wrong – I knew it would one day but that was so far into the future. Well, the future is here.
For 25 years, I have known what duties my job entailed. But that all changed on Saturday. There will be no more peanut butter sandwiches to pack, no more kisses as they grab their backpack and walk out the door, no more waves from the window. Not on a daily basis. And this is what we, as moms want, right? We want our children to grow up as independent adults who can take on their world and make a difference. That’s what I want, too. I’m just not sure what retirement holds for me and that’s a bit scary.
When people have asked me how I’m doing, I’ve been truthful in answering, “I’m doing okay, but…” And their reply is always pretty similar, “Yes, but now you have grandchildren to take up your time.” I do. But it will be a different “time taker”. I will miss the daily songs, the long hair on the bathroom floor, the extra dishes in the sink and the dirty clothes in the baskets. I will miss the noise that having kids in the house brings.
I guess this is what having an empty nest feels like. And it happened in the blink of an eye. Not really, but it feels like it did. When we leave for harvest in a week or so, my new normal will begin. We’ve never done harvest completely on our own. And when we get back in the fall, Callie will be in college. So, I better soak up the noise and all that having kids here on a daily basis brings because it will soon be a memory.
To all the moms out there who have little people and this day seems like an eternity away, please stop and hug those little guys right now! Enjoy the messes and the spills. Don’t worry about the broken toy or the fact that you can’t see the floor through all the clothes. Enjoy all the good times and the bad that comes with having the greatest job in the world because all too soon, you too will be facing retirement and a new normal.
Congratulations, Callie! The day was perfect. You worked hard for everything you received and I couldn’t be more proud of you! You made everything appear easy to your peers and not many know or understand just how much you have already conquered. The road less traveled is scary. It will mean not having many walking beside you. But the ones who are, will be there with you every step of the way. Keep blazing your own trail and don’t look back. You’re an amazing person and I’m so very lucky to be able to have you call me mom.
We had a beautiful day for graduation…a bit on the windy side…and representation from a few states – Colorado, Iowa, North Dakota, Oklahoma and Wyoming. One of the many blessings associated with harvest and having friends all over the country! Thank you to all of you who came to help us celebrate Callie’s accomplishments! Each of you have been instrumental in molding her into the person she is today. THANK YOU and we love you!