I never thought sitting in the maternity waiting room would be so emotional. Maybe it’s the time of day (1:55 am) or maybe it’s just the emotions of the moment. Whatever it is, I never expected it! The tears just won’t quit.
I’m sitting here by myself concerned for my daughter’s well being! It’s the mother’s heart yearning to be with her child when she’s hurting. Something that was placed in my heart the moment I laid eyes on her 27 years ago.
I know Jamie and Curt were right in making the decision to do this as a couple but just so hard, as a mom, to sit here and know that always before when she was hurt and in pain, I was there for her.
So, I sit and I wait knowing that the next time I see my oldest daughter she, too, will be a mom. Maybe one day she will be sitting where I am and understand the uneasy feeling deep in my soul. The only way to ease that motherly desire to be there holding her hand and telling her its going to be ok is knowing that Curt is there doing that very thing. Still doesn’t ease that anxiousness that I’ve felt most of today.
I tried to stay away. And I did until about 3:30 this afternoon. The anxious feeling in my heart just wouldn’t give up till I was sitting in the room with her. Or walking the halls with her. Or helping through the contractions. Doing ANYTHING to help with her hurt.
I am truly anxious to meet my first grandchild! But right now, what I’m most anxious for is to get in that room and see for myself that Jamie is ok, give her a hug and tell her how proud I am of her!
After that…I will introduce myself to the newest member of our family!
Had been thinking of Jamie wondering if the newest addition had made an appearance yet. A new cousin! (yes I know how far down but a cousin just the same) Waiting for a picture when possible!
Picture has been produced. He’s pretty new in these. Will update tomorrow. Thanks Karen!
So well written as always Tracy and sincerely hope all goes well. When my children were born and 50s and 60s, fathers were excluded as you are experiencing. We would wait alone to get the formal message from medical personnel…its a ________ and all is well.
Ugh!! Dave, it was a horrible, horrible wait out there! I just wanted to be there and couldn’t. But it’s over now and we have a boy to spoil!!
AHHHH! Waiting is so hard. So very excited for you all!
It was the WORST!
Waiting is the WORST! I know the feeling! I am so glad all is well! And a GRANDSON! I am so happy for all of you! I can’t wait to get in on the spoiling!!!!
Can you believe it, Pohney?? A BOY! He is such a little punkin. He’s already stolen my heart and whatever he wants, I’ll make sure he gets it! 🙂 I hope you get to meet him one day.
I have followed your post for almost a year and have learned so much about what you do. I have to say though, this morning I read your post and sat at my desk in tears. I had already read the next post so I knew your happy news but reading this post as a mother of a teenage girl it made me cry. (just glad I arrived at work early and no one else was here!) Glad all is well! Congratulations to all!!
It was emotions that just overwhelmed me at the time and HAD to write them down. Sounds like I may have effectively written down how my heart was feeling! THANK YOU for letting me know you are out there and that you’re learning more and more about our way of life. Feel free to stop by again. I enjoy hearing from my readers!!
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